Test a new washer? yes please, and other normal life stuff

Wow...it's quiet here with only 7 kids haha 

Things were really way crazier than I realized with the cousins here. But it was still fun while it lasted.

We got to pick up a test washer over the weekend. It is one of the first made here in the US from LG. I've had my whirlpool duet front loading set for years, this one is a top loader, and it is amazing! I am super happy with it so far, you can follow along and see unwrapping videos and other info on the washer on my youtube channel TheStitchress 

Now we are settling into our routine of assessment testing and dr appointments and life as normal as it can be with such a large family.

I am starting to take my daughter to therapy on the 28th, and weekly after that. Hopefully we will be able to figure out why she has so much harder a time at just staying out of trouble than the boys. I am afraid they will say bi polar or something and that really worries me because her 2 cousins are bipolar with other issues sprinkled in and I'm not confident I can parent that.

I am a good mom. I mean you know, I don't day drink, I don't beat them, I don't really punish them as often as I probably should, and I've never tried to sell any of them for big macs, target gift cards or meth.

Hey, I guess I'm pretty good then.

My daughter has issues. I'm ok with that. I am learning that maybe I should've taken her in sooner to be diagnosed more seriously, and that is my big parenting fault at this point, I feel.

I was raised by my mom, a single mom, and she always said if she had to take me to the dr., that DCS would be called and I'd be taken away. Now, to clarify, she did have my older brother removed from the house when he was only a little over a year, so I can understand why she would be a little apprehensive. This was a different time too, her parents were different, society was different, I don't fault her for doing what she thought was best. I just wish she would've been able to get me help as a child.

So, I have had this sort of apprehension of taking the kids in for things unneccessarily.  I know they wouldn't have been removed from my home, but when my kids were smaller, it was kind of the time when the dr's were diagnosing every child that came through with something and I didn't want to be the mom that had my kids labeled for everything when they were just kids and there wasn't really a significant problem that needed diagnosing.

So, yea I did not parent that well. BUT I am attempting to rectify that parenting fail, with a parenting win and get any dr appointments we need and keep them and make sure I can get them any help they need. With the family background that we have between myself and my husband, I am now seeing that these problems we are having with the kids, may very well be more than just behavior. There are underlying problems that I need to seek help for and that doesn't make me a bad mom..right?

With my oldest, having Tourette's, I feel like that should be enough. I was allowed 1 special needs kid..not all of them should be special needs...but maybe that was wrong..we will see.

I hope all of you guys are having a great start to the new year, this month is actually flying by this year, so I am looking forward to summer already! Until next time, keep on breathing, keep on going, I do <3

Alone time? You're just making up words now...

I can't believe it is the 11th already...I said before January is usually the longest month of my year, but this year is already sailing by. I am admittedly busier this year than usual, so maybe that's the key.

My nieces and nephew are leaving this weekend to live in Memphis with their dad's family, until the custody agreement works out. I'm sad to see them go, I knew they couldn't stay with me forever but it's still sad. I mean yea I have 7 of my own, I shouldn't be greedy right?

What sane person wants to have 11 kids in their house? Anyone else? I think I'm a little off.

However, I am also not that mom you see screaming and pulling her hair out if she doesn't get a night out every week or month or YEAR!! yea I don't get out much.

I always have a child with me...ALWAYS...yep even in the shower, I am not alone.

But, it doesn't bother me. I honestly feel weird when I am in the garage at my "office" (hahaha that's a funny word for my space) and the kids may happen to not be talking to me for a few minutes. I will even call one of them to come tell me what's happening, because I assume they are getting into stuff that I will have to clean up or dismantling one of my appliances or maybe summoning a Type 4 pig demon Nalfeshnee from the abyss....all completely manageable situations, as I am a  Tabaxi Rogue and I think I could manage the pig demon...but that's another adventure for another day..hopefully..

I really love my kids. I love being mom 24/7. I love that my 16 yr old still calls me mama, and fusses at his 13 yr old sister if she happens to say "mom"! All of my boys are mama's boys. My 13 yr old, well she's not my biggest fan, but that's also another story for another day.

I don't understand mom's that don't want to be with their kids. I mean I know,I mean I think I know that you sometimes need some alone time...I think I remember getting alone time once when I was like 25ish?..who knows..I bet I was bored..I don't want alone time, probably because I hate myself. I don't want to be alone with me, I'm an asshat...BUT when I'm with my kids, I'm ok, I love their little personalities, and their little quirks, and I love that they aren't asshats! haha

I'm it's terribly unhealthy, but for now my happy place is with my kids...even when I can't hold back tears and look like I just went 30 seconds in the ring with Rhonda Rousy pounding my face because my eyes are so swollen from crying, my kids still love me. Even when I hate myself so much I just want to crawl into a dark hole and die alone, my kids still love me.

They need me and because of them I just keep breathing, I just keep going..everyday.. and for that I thank them and I love them and I hope they never forget that I have loved them everyday of their lives and never regretted one minute I chose to spend with them over myself <3

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Welcome!! You have stumbled upon my little corner of the interwebs where I will be sharing fun projects, sales for my shop, pattern tutorials and just general stuff from my life.

I am a wife to 1 gingerbeard man  and mom and teacher to 7 little pifflesniffs.  We have 10 cats, that I actually allow in the house, there are about 8 more that linger in the neighborhood. I have snagged most of them and spayed/neutered them so hopefully that number doesn't increase. I'm sure you will be introduced to our brood as time goes on, the kids and the cats love to get in on the picture taking.  I also experience severe anxiety and sometimes fall into deep dark pits of depression. I do not have a huge circle of friends in real life, but I honestly don't think I have enough time in the day to entertain anymore people than I already have...so that's ok too.

I hope to share projects, happy little accidents of creating and a passion for creating with anyone who stops by. I also hope that if you become a reader here, when I post about depression/anxiety issues, you will become more aware of what some people may be experiencing, or if you also deal with these issues, maybe I will share something helpful for you to use to manage your own bouts more easily.

We are a pretty eccentric family...I think...I think we are eccentric by 1990 standards probably...maybe there are lots of families like ours today. I am just not aware of them. I do know we are definitely not the norm here in our area.

I am a seamstress at heart, and truly enjoy sewing and creating with fabric and fibers. I have a little Etsy shop, just like every other stay at home mom in the world. I am just a bit of a late bloomer. I only opened it about a year ago.

I hope to give everyone that stops by a little insight and inspiration to create something amazing!